
A parent would reach for this book when their teenager is experiencing the heavy, confusing weight of a first crush that cannot be reciprocated. It is especially suited for a young person who feels like an outsider in their own community, whether due to their interests, gender expression, or sexual orientation. The story follows Mike, a butch teenager in a small Kansas town, who falls deeply for a new girl named Xanadu. While the romance is the catalyst, the book is truly about the painful but necessary process of self-discovery and the courage it takes to be oneself when the world feels very small. This is a poignant exploration of identity, longing, and the reality of unrequited love. It deals with mature themes including grief over a parent's suicide and the struggle of being LGBTQ+ in a conservative environment. Because of its raw emotional honesty and some mature references, it is most appropriate for high school students aged 14 and up. It offers a mirror for teens who feel 'different' and provides a roadmap for moving through heartache toward self-acceptance.
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Sign in to write a reviewThe protagonist's father died by suicide prior to the book's start; it is a central theme.
Occasional realistic teen profanity.
Focuses on intense romantic longing and some physical attraction/tension.
Deals with unrequited love and the lingering trauma of a parent's suicide.
Parental suicide, depression, grief, and instances of bullying/harassment based on gender expression and sexual orientation.
A 16-year-old who feels like an outsider in their small town and is currently navigating the specific, crushing weight of a first love that isn't returned. This is for the teen who expresses themselves through physical strength or stoicism but needs permission to feel and process their vulnerability.
Parents should be aware of the backstory regarding Mike’s father’s suicide, as this informs much of her emotional landscape. The book is best read with an understanding that the protagonist is dealing with significant trauma alongside her romantic longing. A parent might reach for this when their child has become withdrawn after a social rejection, or if the child is struggling to find their place in a community where they don't fit the traditional mold of their peers.
Younger teens (14) will focus on the intensity of the crush and the social dynamics of the small town. Older teens (17+) will better grasp the nuance of Mike’s grief and the complex ways that trauma and identity intersect in a restrictive environment.
Unlike many YA romances that prioritize the "happily ever after" of a couple, this book focuses on the internal victory of the protagonist surviving heartbreak and choosing to keep going. It is a rare, authentic look at butch identity in rural America.
Mike is a stoic, hardworking butch teenager living in a rural Kansas town where she feels out of place. Her life revolves around weightlifting, manual labor, and softball until Xanadu, a sophisticated and magnetic new girl, arrives. Mike falls deeply in love, but the relationship is complicated by Xanadu’s heterosexuality and Mike’s internal struggle with her father’s recent suicide. The story follows Mike’s journey through intense unrequited longing and the eventual path toward healing and self-worth.
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